Thursday 8 January 2009

Mission Accomplished

I did manage to get all my eight things done yesterday! What is more, I felt calm and relaxed at the end of the day and spent a few minutes with my boys poring over the Lego catalogue and helping them write a list of what they wanted to buy. This is in contrast to my usual, exhausted good night kiss and request not to hear from them until morning! So I am trying the same strategy today (although today's list has 16 things on it, writing my blog being number 3.)

I am feeling that persistent guilt that I am not doing enough with the children and I am trying to dampen it by telling myself that this is still our Christmas holiday. The truth is that I am just feeling very flat and unmotivated. I am trying to notice how I feel without forcing myself to change and I am hoping that by being a little more gentle on myself, by lowering my expectations, I will rest body and soul and feel re-energised to start next week.

In the meantime, I have followed this link from Here a the Bonny Glen, to a great site of read-aloud poetry. Here is 'Say Not the Struggle Naught Availeth' read with a voice like warm chocolate. Maybe I can find some time to listen to more of this today ...

2 comments:

Jane D. said...

Well done you!! Continue to be kind to yourself - I am getting more convinced that when you do this it permeates out of you onto the others around you as well!!

Anonymous said...

Hurray for you. Those are great decisions and great accomplishments. I think our culture is basically workaholic and that when we feel like we are not doing enough, we are comparing ourselves to an unreasonable standard.

Also, when I had my most recent anxiety attack about whether we were doing enough I made a list of all the things that were working with Tigger. and that helped a lot.

Did you see Sarah's post about to do lists at Handmade Homeschool? (http://handmadehomeschool.wordpress.com/2009/01/05/shhhthe-universe-is-talking-to-me/)