I did manage to get all my eight things done yesterday! What is more, I felt calm and relaxed at the end of the day and spent a few minutes with my boys poring over the Lego catalogue and helping them write a list of what they wanted to buy. This is in contrast to my usual, exhausted good night kiss and request not to hear from them until morning! So I am trying the same strategy today (although today's list has 16 things on it, writing my blog being number 3.)
I am feeling that persistent guilt that I am not doing enough with the children and I am trying to dampen it by telling myself that this is still our Christmas holiday. The truth is that I am just feeling very flat and unmotivated. I am trying to notice how I feel without forcing myself to change and I am hoping that by being a little more gentle on myself, by lowering my expectations, I will rest body and soul and feel re-energised to start next week.
In the meantime, I have followed this link from Here a the Bonny Glen, to a great site of read-aloud poetry. Here is 'Say Not the Struggle Naught Availeth' read with a voice like warm chocolate. Maybe I can find some time to listen to more of this today ...
2 comments:
Well done you!! Continue to be kind to yourself - I am getting more convinced that when you do this it permeates out of you onto the others around you as well!!
Hurray for you. Those are great decisions and great accomplishments. I think our culture is basically workaholic and that when we feel like we are not doing enough, we are comparing ourselves to an unreasonable standard.
Also, when I had my most recent anxiety attack about whether we were doing enough I made a list of all the things that were working with Tigger. and that helped a lot.
Did you see Sarah's post about to do lists at Handmade Homeschool? (http://handmadehomeschool.wordpress.com/2009/01/05/shhhthe-universe-is-talking-to-me/)
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